Saturday, March 4th (Day Four)
Discerning Interior Movements, Darkness and Light
The Struggle between Life and Death, Romans 7:14-8:11
1. Come into God’s (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) loving presence. Feel God’s loving gaze. Offer yourself completely to God.
2. Silently sit before God for 10 minutes.
3. Read Romans 7:14-8:11 five times very slowly. The first time, simply and reverently read it, allowing God’s word to flow over you. The second time be aware of any verse word, phrase or concept that God is revealing to you as you read. Meditate silently for several minutes what the Lord has given you. During the third reading allow a prayer to formulate in your heart and offer that prayer to God. As the Scripture is read a fourth time, allow yourself to be drawn into the biblical scene as if you are living it right now. Be aware of any physical sensations, thoughts, or emotions that may arise. Journal your experience in detail. The fifth and final reading should be a reading of unknowing. Simply rest in the mystery of God’s presence and God’s Word, peacefully and with great joy.
4. Journal important aspects of the entire experience.
Read the following as food for thought:
I can become angry when people display a sense of entitlement or when they put themselves forth as authorities in areas in which they have no understanding. This animosity can spread to those who are self-centered and self-important. Likewise I can become prideful when slighted, judged or made to feel less that I think I deserve. Lord, I pray for a deeper awareness of these areas of darkness. Lord, take away any anger and pride or any darkness that I may not be aware of in my life.
Thank you Lord Jesus, for the sources of light you provide in my life: Your presence; the gift of meditation, contemplation, your Word, prayer and the blessing of being able to preach and to teach. I am also very grateful for the light of this retreat. Mostly Lord, I thank you for the light of my wife, MaryAnn, my family and friends. Lord, help me to grow in all these light giving aspects of my life, especially in my relationship with you Lord God, my family and my friends.