Thursday, April 6th (Day Thirty-two)
Dear Lord, I pray that I may know your love for me in a deeper way as I ponder your willingness to suffer on my behalf.
The Last Supper, Mark 14:12-31 or Matthew 26:17-35 or Luke 22: 7:34
1. Come into God’s (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) loving presence. Feel God’s loving, healing gaze come over you. Offer yourself completely to God.
2. Silently sit before God for 10 minutes.
3. Read Mark 14:12-31 or Matthew 26:17-35 or Luke 22: 7:34 five times very slowly. The first time, simply and reverently read it, allowing God’s word to flow over you. The second time be aware of any verse word, phrase or concept that God is revealing to you as you read. Meditate silently for several minutes what the Lord has given you. During the third reading allow a prayer to formulate in your heart and offer that prayer to God. As the Scripture is read a fourth time, allow yourself to be drawn into the biblical scene as if you are living it right now. Be aware of any physical sensations, thoughts, or emotions that may arise. Journal your experience in detail. The fifth and final reading should be a reading of unknowing. Simply rest in the mystery of God’s presence and God’s Word, peacefully and with great joy.
4. Journal important aspects of the entire experience.
Read the following. You may use it as a guide or just food for thought:
I am drawn to be with Jesus. Where else would I go? Jesus is eager to have this Passover. He has prepared and is doing what only God could do. The Lord’s love is boundless. This love is profound as I watch Jesus take, bless, break and give the bread, saying “this is my body given for you”, then saying to us all, “take eat in remembrance of me.” There is no hesitancy even in the presence of his betrayer and those who would deny him. Great love! Then the Lord hands a piece of the bread to me. I am blessed to my core by the experience. Then after a while Jesus takes the cup, lifts the cup and says “this is my blood, the blood of a new covenant given to you and many for the forgiveness of sins. Drink in remembrance of me” I drink. The bread and the wine intermingle within me and I feel transformed, deeply humbled, and greatly blessed. Holy Communion feels like this to me every time I partake, which tells me that each Eucharist is an extension of the first, connected to the original act in the upper room. I reflect on the Lord’s suffering, but Jesus seems far more concerned with the suffering of others than of his own suffering. I think I see a tear in the corner of His eye. The gulf of sin that separates God’s people from a deep awareness of and relationship with God saddens Jesus. Jesus is not speaking now, but I can hear him say “If they only understood the peace that stands before them they would be healed of their perceived separation from God.”