Tuesday, April 11th (Day Thirty-six)
Dear Lord, I pray for the courage to follow you and deeply experience your passion, death and resurrection this week. Lord, help me to become more fully aware of Your presence and Your Love for me, for all people and all creation, this Holy week. In Christ’s precious name I pray. Amen.
Peter’s Denial: Mark 14:66-72; Matthew 26:69-75; Luke 22:54-62
1. Come into God’s (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) loving presence. Feel God’s loving, healing gaze come over you. Offer yourself completely to God.
2. Silently sit before God for 10 minutes.
3. Read Mark 14:66-72 or Matthew 26:69-75 or Luke 22:54-62 five times very slowly. The first time, simply and reverently read it, allowing God’s word to flow over you. The second time be aware of any verse word, phrase or concept that God is revealing to you as you read. Meditate silently for several minutes what the Lord has given you. During the third reading allow a prayer to formulate in your heart and offer that prayer to God. As the Scripture is read a fourth time, allow yourself to be drawn into the biblical scene as if you are living it right now. Be aware of any physical sensations, thoughts, or emotions that may arise. Journal your experience in detail.
The fifth and final reading should be a reading of unknowing. Simply rest in the mystery of God’s presence and God’s Word, peacefully and with great joy.
4. Journal important aspects of the entire experience.
Read the following. You may use it as a guide or just food for thought:
I am seeing this as if I am Peter. In my mind I have every intention to stick by, support, and defend Jesus. I even have several scenarios running through my mind. I could tell them about the miracles I witnessed. I could try to explain that they are mistaken if they think Jesus would ever do them harm. I might look for an opportunity to grab Jesus and run. Then all of a sudden a servant girl points to me and I deny him. I gather myself and say “No!” to myself. Then, again I am accused of being one who was with him, again I deny him saying “I am not.” I am now very disappointed with myself. I compose myself, now a little less confident. I think to myself there is still time to help Jesus. Then it happened again; this time I say vehemently “I do not know him.” My head is now spinning; I hear a rooster crow and I remember what Jesus said. I am devastated. Then, somehow I have come close to Jesus. I can see him right before me. He turns and looks at me, with compassion, not condemnation, but also with disappointment. The eyes that had over and over looked into my eyes and smiled, now show disappointment. I am overwhelmed, everything is whirring around me. I feel chaos, no peace.