Wednesday April 12th (Day Thirty-seven)
(Part One: Morning)
Dear Lord, I pray for the courage to follow you and deeply experience your passion, death and resurrection this week. Lord, help me to become more fully aware of Your presence and Your Love for me, for all people and all creation, this Holy week. In Christ’s precious name I pray. Amen.
The Way of the Cross and Crucifixion, Mark 15:21-32; Matthew 27:32-42; Luke 23:26-43; John 19:16-27
1. Come into God’s (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) loving presence. Feel God’s loving, healing gaze come over you. Offer yourself completely to God.
2. Silently sit before God for 10 minutes.
3. Read Mark 15:21-32 or Matthew 27:32-42 or Luke 23:26-43or John 19:16-27 five times very slowly. The first time, simply and reverently read it, allowing God’s word to flow over you. The second time be aware of any verse word, phrase or concept that God is revealing to you as you read. Meditate silently for several minutes what the Lord has given you. During the third reading allow a prayer to formulate in your heart and offer that prayer to God. As the Scripture is read a fourth time, allow yourself to be drawn into the biblical scene as if you are living it right now. Be aware of any physical sensations, thoughts, or emotions that may arise. Journal your experience in detail. The fifth and final reading should be a reading of unknowing. Simply rest in the mystery of God’s presence and God’s Word, peacefully and with great joy.
4. Journal important aspects of the entire experience.
Read the following. You may use it as a guide or just food for thought:
As the horrible scene unfolds, everyone deserts Jesus. As I watch I no longer feel the victory. I have a fleeting thought to run out there and help him to escape. I feel depressed, a rare feeling for me. Jesus is now nailed to the cross. The pain and abuse is not enough, now they must mock him. I feel anger and somewhat nauseas. I begin to express to Jesus, in my heart, how sorry I am for my part in his suffering. I feel helpless. I hear Jesus speak to my heart. He is saying “Come closer.” I look around apprehensively. I see soldiers, as well as some members of the Sanhedrin. I think to myself “What are they doing here?” I want to chase them away, especially as they scold the Son of God on the cross. I see John and some women just staring at Jesus. I see Mary, Jesus’ mother, who looks broken, with her hands over her face, as she looks downward. I feel great compassion for them. Then I slowly move closer to Jesus, sitting silently just below his feet, with my back leaning against the base of the cross.